Small October update......

Hi all....stopping in to link up my blog to my hubby new "geek" game (sorry to anyone i might offend calling them a geek if you play this game...lol) If you want to become a virtual reality trucker click on the link above.

we are doing good here. school is going ok for kiddo. having a hard time still being prepared for different classes. she is also showing her true "tween" attitude of late with me and im having a hard time ...it always seems like we are arguing.

im no longer at the video store and have been working at one of the local grocery stores in their meals to go area. we do the cold case salads, pizzas to order and also a hot case with fried chicken, wings, baked whole chicken, fries, small cooked hams. its a very busy area of the store and im never bored or have time to relax. only working 2 shifts a week which is what i want.

my knee is doing so so. like before i have good days and bad days. just have to remember to take my pills.

hope all is well with you. big hugs and talk to you again soon.

big comfy couch.....(long post)

First off let me start by saying that I just havent been in the mood to post anything on my blog. I lay in bed sometimes thinking of all this stuff i could write and its actually quite witty and full of details. but when i finally get up and sit in front of this beast nothing comes to me but whining and ramble. *shrugs* so i just dont post.

I feel that an update is overdue here...so here goes....

this past week has been a week of very little sleep for me and almost no sleep for dear hubby. his cough has just be horrible. last monday or tuesday (i forgot which day) he went to the doctors and was told at the time that all he could really do is tough it out and drink lots of hot steamy liquid to loosen up the mucus. as the week went on it stayed the same but then on thurday night it seem to get worse and friday was the most misserable for him.

i have to add that he has been so sweet going out into the living room to let me TRY and sleep while he sat up coughing out there. i didnt sleep much...i just wanted to take care of him and make sure he was ok. i think its that "mother" thing in all of us that push us to care for someone else then ourselves.

after i got home from work friday i got us some dinner and then at about 7:45 we decided we better go to the urgent care/emergency room. the reason we didnt want to wait the weekend and see our own doctor was that now when he coughed he was getting very short of breathe and almost choked a couple times getting stuff up.

we arrived at the ER at 8pm and waited. we waited until 11pm to just get into a room. then at midnight he was sent for a chest xray....and then just before 1am the doctor came in and saw him. he prescribed a nebulizer (sp?) and meds w/saline to help loosen up stuff and sent him home. we were sure they would put him in the hospital just in case...but they didnt since his chest was showing clear at the time.

since it was 1:00am in the morning the pharmacy of course was closed so he coughed all night in the living room while i tried to sleep since i had to be at work at 9:30am the next morning. i got up at 7:30am...showered and headed out the pharmacy that opened at 8am. got his stuff, came home and showed him how to use the machine and administer the dosage needed into it. then off to work i went.

considering how dead tired i was at work i was over compensating it by being the nicest person i could be....lol nobody pissed me off and i wasnt grumpy at all. i was actually sweet as punch and i actually had a few customers even say how helpful and kind i was....lol...little do they know how i was really feeling. i was able to get the next shift person to come in a little early and i went home just after 2pm.

the machine is definitly helping his cough loosen up but he is still coughing and not sleeping. he is just exhausted and i feel so bad for him. he would be so much better if he could get just one good night sleep.

work sunday for me was slow so it made for a really really long day. so on the way home i stopped at M&M Meats and got something quick to pop in the oven for dinner so i didnt have to cook.

hubby stayed in the living room again for me since i laid down at 6:30pm and fell asleep for a few hours. he came in the room at 4am and just wanted to be comfy in bed for a bit and would go back out if his cough bothered me. will....his cough kicked in again and i went to the living room letting him have the bed since i dont have work today and he needed the comfy bed more then me. i watched some news on tv...had a bowl of cherrios and then fell back to sleep about 6am and back up again at 7am to get kiddo going for school today.

i asked hubby how he was doing today and we decided if no change we were going to see our doctor this morning to see what he says and let him know what happened over the weekend.

so that was my week.....how are you doing?

just a little shade of blue......

as a parent there are days you just wonder why you are a parent. yesterday i felt like the i should have won the worst parent award. for some reason lately kiddo and i have not been seeing eye to eye on anything. from how i see it....all she seems to do is argue every little thing with me...everything!

anyway...yesterday morning wasnt the best and i know we didnt leave on good terms when i dropped her off for school because we always say "i love you" before she gets out of the car and i got nothing but a cold shoulder. i called her back to the car window after she got out and told her that i loved her and she say "ok" but nothing else. i was so upset i gave her a line my gave me a few times when i was a snot. the line....."how bad would you feel if something happened to me today and this is the last time you see me?" she shrugged it off and grunted out..."love you" as she turned and walked away.

i was so upset i cried all the way home. cleared off my face....went back inside the house to finish getting ready to head out for the day with hubby. i was in such a funk all morning. the 45 minute drive into the next town was quiet. we did our stop to CAA for trip stuff and then into Linens N Things and bought a few things because we kinda needed them and i was in the mood to shop. i still dont like buying things just for myself but we bought things for the house.

headed to Michaels for a couple things kiddo needs for a school project and then went to lunch. made hubby pick where he wanted to go...i wasnt in the mood to eat or decide where to eat.
while we waited to order hubby had to step away...as he was away i was on the verge of tears from the events that happened earlier...im just glad he came back quick cuz i almost lost it right there at the table.

we ate at Eastside Marios and found it very good considering im normally not one for italian food as my choice of foods. i had fettichini afredo with shrimp...yummm. dont remember what hubby had but it was some pasta filled things with a nice cheesy sauce.

i feel like my anti -depressents (sp?) are playing tug of war the was two days now. i was feeling very leveled out the past few weeks. nothing bad but nothing good....just ok. for me that is good...the lows arent there like they were 2 months ago. but yesterday and today are so hard for me.

I had to go to the doctors today also because those acid pills i was taking the past few weeks havent really helped and have had 2 other major attacks of gas and abdominal pain from it since taking the pills so i had to go in and let him know. we have ruled out now that its not an acid problem. so....next step is to work our way down from the tummy. we are trying something else now that i have to take now with every meal. long story on what we think it might be and just too much TMI also. either way....i started something new today.

also since the acid thing isnt what is causing my gas and discomfort i can go back on my knee pills also. THANK YOU! my knee is almost back to the way it was before starting the knee meds...meaning i get sharp pains just sitting and doing nothing, sleeping, etc.

im just so frustrated with my health lately. but i am thankful that my anti-depressents are somewhat helping me cuz i know i would be in the dark hole if i wasnt. im only halfway down that hole right now...its KINDA undercontrol (just barely).

work both saturday and sunday this weekend. mother in law isnt coming since im working and i felt a little over whelmed with work, and everything at once to make each night go smooth before going out either to bingo or and evening out with hubby. so she said another time....which is so nice of her. my mental state isnt the greatest lately and she understands that.

enough of my ramble today...just feeling a bit down and tired of feeling sick and tired of the pain in my knee. thank you for listening to me.

hope you are well.....big hugs to you.

It's official.....

Yep...another storm day! there was nothing going on when i got up at 7am this morning so I got kiddo up for school, got me showered and lunches made. she sits down to eat breakfast...we turn on the radio (still nothing going on outside yet) only to find out school has been cancelled for the day! WHAT???? omg....so i go tell hubby this who is still sleeping and since he still wasnt feeling 100% still and came home early from work yesterday he is going to stay home with kiddo instead of making her go to work with me....she is thrilled to say the least...lol.

when we were listening to the radio again about weather and storm watch the announcer said that it should be starting anytime now with what is showing on the radar and sure enough....i looked outside and it was slowly starting. MOTHERF'R!

the weather is calling for snow to start this morning...heavy at times through out day 15-20cm expected this afternoon and early evening.

*insert sarcasm here*....OH its going to be such a great day! (note the mood im in to the right)

im heading to work in just over a hour and i know that with school being out now and the storm just starting im in for a very busy morning. im just hoping that my relief person will make it in at 2:30pm. hubby joked that she should remember to bring her sleeping bag and food since we never close and we must be there to keep the store open...lol

my only hope is that we are plowed out saturday morning before noon time because kiddo and hubby both have hair cut appointments. kiddo really needs one and is past the length allowed for cadets if she wants to continue to wear her hair down and not pulled back into a bun. we shall see.

have a great friday and even better weekend where you are.
HUGS

.....I just realized something too. IT'S FRIDAY THE 13TH!!! now it explains all this.

I guess an update is overdue.....

So on easter sunday most of the town was snowed in and the roads were crap. our street finally got plowed out sometime after noon and our property management plow did the driveway just after 1pm. i headed out to work about 1:25 taking a bit long to get there with the roads being a bit slushy and full of drifts.

when i get closer to work i notice the parking lot was just being plowed and couldnt get in so i parked it in the next parking lot over until he was done...getting into work just after 2pm and opening the store at 2:20pm. i had a total of 4 customers in 3 hours. i just dont understand why we even had to open that day at all.

I almost didnt get out of there at 5:30 (actually left at 5:50pm) cuz my relief person that was to work at 5pm showed up and then said he had to leave after being there for only 5 minutes because he was having a panic attack and just bolted. its bad enough that i had to work easter sunday and put all my family stuff on hold until i get home but it was managable...then this. i was pissed. so i called the manager to let him know what happened. with all this going on hubby is sick also with a flare up of his diverticulious and i had to get to the drug store before it closed at 6pm in addition to fixing easter dinner for my family.

the manager first said he would come and let me head out to the pharmacy and then come back to work the rest of the day. i was somewhat shocked and i think i sounded a bit angry with him and told him i couldnt i had family things going on at home and i was supposed to be off at 5:30 even if i had only worked 3 hours. my family comes first in my world.

so manager came in since one of the other girls was snowed in and the other guy we have working for us doesnt know how to run the store on his own. we are short staffed again...can you tell?

easter sunday was the longest day in my life for some reason. the stress of getting out of the house that morning then the fiasco with "panic attack boy" and feeling bad for the manager to come in on his day off. but im sorry to say this....thats why HE is the manager and IM NOT.

hubby as been sick all weekend with major pains in his side and taking my tylenol#2 to help ease the pain until we can get him into the doctors monday morning. kiddo had been sick also this weekend with a major sinus cold...so she was lucky to have that 4 day weekend.

doctor wrote hubby out of work for a few days for his symptoms to calm down with antibiotics and pain meds. he is doing a little better today (weds). not sure yet if he is going to work tomorrow.

this post is turning into whine central.....

one comment about my knee....its killing me. still havent been able to go back onto my knee meds just yet so its just not a topic of great joy with me.

other then that things are just grand. im sure there are other things i can ramble about but my mind went blank on my just now for some reason. hope you had a wonderful easter weekend and start to the work week.

hugs to you...

Green Christmas...White Easter.....

first off....HAPPY EASTER!

Yep...thats what we have here today....WHITE! we are having blizzard conditions since last night and im freaking out. why you ask...because im supposed to open the store today and im not sure what to do. i looked outside my front door and the drift is knee deep all the way down the sides of the car and down to the street. the snow is supposed to let up this afternoon and all that but this is the first time this has happened to me on a day that i have to open the store.

im planning on calling the manager to ask him what to do. postpone the store open until i can get out? take a cab if the cabs are running is my other option (he said he would compensate me for doing that if needed).

its nasty outside. im going to call him in 30 minutes to see what we are doing with the store.

.....more later on this. hubby took a couple pictures of yesterday outside for me and i will get a few from today to show you how much snow we got.

have a great Easter Sunday hugs

9:35am edit.....called cab company and they arent running this way yet....called store manager to let him know....he called district manager with no answer...so im on hold until at least noon when he calls me back to let me know what to do.

this picture was yesterday.....

and this picture was from this morning...... (other shots on my flickr to the right)

lets get this week started.....

i feel like my week started on saturday since i work both days this past weekend.

my whole body hurts after going back to work after being off for 6 weeks. not sure yet if my knees going to be able to do it or not...have to give it a few more weeks to decide what im going to do.

had one of the worst customers every yesterday afternoon 2 hours before my shift was over. i cant get over how entitled people think they are and think they can get there way by yelling at you cuz you are following company policy. he was a jerk and thank goodness i wasnt alone in the store at the time...i would have called the cops...but a regular male customer was in the store at the time and watched the guy leave. customers like this guy make me wonder why im in the customer service industry...i certainly dont have to take this crap for minimum wage.

doing nothing but laundry today...wohoo! fun day ahead of me...the life of a queen is never boring....lol

hugs to you.....and have a great week :)

what a weekend....

yesterdays first day back to work after 6 weeks out was "ok". boy was i tired after my shift...my knee sure isnt used to being on it standing for 7 hours. overall i did pretty good and had no major problems...just had to remember everything and try to keep up with things.

round two is today...another long 7 hour shift. im sure my knee will love me tonight...lol.

i did have something great to look foward to when i got home (other then my family)...NASCAR started last night and i was ready for some "rednecks turning left and going really really fast!". i watched a couple hours of prerace stuff on SPEED network and had a great time watching. this week there are a few other races midweek and then the big race is on sunday at daytona. i will be home from work that day just after it starts so i dont think i will miss much. WOOHOO!!!

tonight is the Grammys. not sure how i feel about watching them this year. nothing really excites me about it but like all awards shows i still watch them if nothing else is on.

thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. i do sometimes feel im living a fairytale when it comes to love in my life right now and im very lucky to have someone that cares for me as much as he does.

have a great rest of your weekend....im off to work.
hugs