big comfy couch.....(long post)

First off let me start by saying that I just havent been in the mood to post anything on my blog. I lay in bed sometimes thinking of all this stuff i could write and its actually quite witty and full of details. but when i finally get up and sit in front of this beast nothing comes to me but whining and ramble. *shrugs* so i just dont post.

I feel that an update is overdue here...so here goes....

this past week has been a week of very little sleep for me and almost no sleep for dear hubby. his cough has just be horrible. last monday or tuesday (i forgot which day) he went to the doctors and was told at the time that all he could really do is tough it out and drink lots of hot steamy liquid to loosen up the mucus. as the week went on it stayed the same but then on thurday night it seem to get worse and friday was the most misserable for him.

i have to add that he has been so sweet going out into the living room to let me TRY and sleep while he sat up coughing out there. i didnt sleep much...i just wanted to take care of him and make sure he was ok. i think its that "mother" thing in all of us that push us to care for someone else then ourselves.

after i got home from work friday i got us some dinner and then at about 7:45 we decided we better go to the urgent care/emergency room. the reason we didnt want to wait the weekend and see our own doctor was that now when he coughed he was getting very short of breathe and almost choked a couple times getting stuff up.

we arrived at the ER at 8pm and waited. we waited until 11pm to just get into a room. then at midnight he was sent for a chest xray....and then just before 1am the doctor came in and saw him. he prescribed a nebulizer (sp?) and meds w/saline to help loosen up stuff and sent him home. we were sure they would put him in the hospital just in case...but they didnt since his chest was showing clear at the time.

since it was 1:00am in the morning the pharmacy of course was closed so he coughed all night in the living room while i tried to sleep since i had to be at work at 9:30am the next morning. i got up at 7:30am...showered and headed out the pharmacy that opened at 8am. got his stuff, came home and showed him how to use the machine and administer the dosage needed into it. then off to work i went.

considering how dead tired i was at work i was over compensating it by being the nicest person i could be....lol nobody pissed me off and i wasnt grumpy at all. i was actually sweet as punch and i actually had a few customers even say how helpful and kind i was....lol...little do they know how i was really feeling. i was able to get the next shift person to come in a little early and i went home just after 2pm.

the machine is definitly helping his cough loosen up but he is still coughing and not sleeping. he is just exhausted and i feel so bad for him. he would be so much better if he could get just one good night sleep.

work sunday for me was slow so it made for a really really long day. so on the way home i stopped at M&M Meats and got something quick to pop in the oven for dinner so i didnt have to cook.

hubby stayed in the living room again for me since i laid down at 6:30pm and fell asleep for a few hours. he came in the room at 4am and just wanted to be comfy in bed for a bit and would go back out if his cough bothered me. will....his cough kicked in again and i went to the living room letting him have the bed since i dont have work today and he needed the comfy bed more then me. i watched some news on tv...had a bowl of cherrios and then fell back to sleep about 6am and back up again at 7am to get kiddo going for school today.

i asked hubby how he was doing today and we decided if no change we were going to see our doctor this morning to see what he says and let him know what happened over the weekend.

so that was my week.....how are you doing?

One thing after another....

I had a busy but ok weekend. had work both saturday and sunday mornings. kiddo has had a cold since friday (i think) but went full blown sunday morning. hubby is now also sick with a cough that just wont let him rest. we are going to the doctors today since he cant take most cold meds due to his blood pressure and heart pills....he has to just usually tough it out...but this one is just bad. he also cant cough hard enough like most people due to his muscular dystrophy so i worry about his lungs not getting cleared out enough. so like i said...we are off to the doctors this morning.

i swear this damn kid cant be quiet! we are up getting ready for school right now and she had her chore to do....take out the compost trash and then take the can to the curb. hubby is trying to rest until its almost time to go and she come barrelling into the door after taking out the compost yelling "there's snow on the ground!!" all the while banging the two compost cans together....and slamming the door. OMG! kids have no clue how to be quiet. GRRRR.

the snow that came down is only a dusting and is changing over to rain today...its pretty but nothing that will stay more then few hours.

i will be playing nurse to hubby and also try and get some sleep myself since i havent been sleeping the past few nights either with him coughing and making sure he is ok. if im not careful and dont get some sleep im going to end up sick also from not being rested.

yikes!!!...just realized today is may 1st. only 29 more sleeps until im 40!

hope you have a good day today....big hugs to you :)

just a little shade of blue......

as a parent there are days you just wonder why you are a parent. yesterday i felt like the i should have won the worst parent award. for some reason lately kiddo and i have not been seeing eye to eye on anything. from how i see it....all she seems to do is argue every little thing with me...everything!

anyway...yesterday morning wasnt the best and i know we didnt leave on good terms when i dropped her off for school because we always say "i love you" before she gets out of the car and i got nothing but a cold shoulder. i called her back to the car window after she got out and told her that i loved her and she say "ok" but nothing else. i was so upset i gave her a line my gave me a few times when i was a snot. the line....."how bad would you feel if something happened to me today and this is the last time you see me?" she shrugged it off and grunted out..."love you" as she turned and walked away.

i was so upset i cried all the way home. cleared off my face....went back inside the house to finish getting ready to head out for the day with hubby. i was in such a funk all morning. the 45 minute drive into the next town was quiet. we did our stop to CAA for trip stuff and then into Linens N Things and bought a few things because we kinda needed them and i was in the mood to shop. i still dont like buying things just for myself but we bought things for the house.

headed to Michaels for a couple things kiddo needs for a school project and then went to lunch. made hubby pick where he wanted to go...i wasnt in the mood to eat or decide where to eat.
while we waited to order hubby had to step away...as he was away i was on the verge of tears from the events that happened earlier...im just glad he came back quick cuz i almost lost it right there at the table.

we ate at Eastside Marios and found it very good considering im normally not one for italian food as my choice of foods. i had fettichini afredo with shrimp...yummm. dont remember what hubby had but it was some pasta filled things with a nice cheesy sauce.

i feel like my anti -depressents (sp?) are playing tug of war the was two days now. i was feeling very leveled out the past few weeks. nothing bad but nothing good....just ok. for me that is good...the lows arent there like they were 2 months ago. but yesterday and today are so hard for me.

I had to go to the doctors today also because those acid pills i was taking the past few weeks havent really helped and have had 2 other major attacks of gas and abdominal pain from it since taking the pills so i had to go in and let him know. we have ruled out now that its not an acid problem. so....next step is to work our way down from the tummy. we are trying something else now that i have to take now with every meal. long story on what we think it might be and just too much TMI also. either way....i started something new today.

also since the acid thing isnt what is causing my gas and discomfort i can go back on my knee pills also. THANK YOU! my knee is almost back to the way it was before starting the knee meds...meaning i get sharp pains just sitting and doing nothing, sleeping, etc.

im just so frustrated with my health lately. but i am thankful that my anti-depressents are somewhat helping me cuz i know i would be in the dark hole if i wasnt. im only halfway down that hole right now...its KINDA undercontrol (just barely).

work both saturday and sunday this weekend. mother in law isnt coming since im working and i felt a little over whelmed with work, and everything at once to make each night go smooth before going out either to bingo or and evening out with hubby. so she said another time....which is so nice of her. my mental state isnt the greatest lately and she understands that.

enough of my ramble today...just feeling a bit down and tired of feeling sick and tired of the pain in my knee. thank you for listening to me.

hope you are well.....big hugs to you.

If it isnt one thing...its another....

With everything that is going on with me....I GOT KIDDOS DARN COLD! blah!

To the doctor I go....

my last post was no april fools joke...I wish it was. Last night was so bad for me that hubby urged me to see the doctor this morning....which I did. from what the doctor could figure out I have big time acid problem with possible burning going on....who knew that could cause such gas problems? anyway...he gave me a prescription for Omerprazole and told me that if he is right I should be feeling better by friday. if not I have to go see him on friday again and we go from there. the pills he said will take a couple days to work so i have to hang in there. the bad part in all this is i have to stop my knee pills until my stomach problems are done cuz those meds can irritate what ever is going on even more.

all i know is im tired of feeling like crap. if it isnt one thing its another and i told the doctor i feel like im falling apart before i even hit 40 and im scared for what is to come as i get older.

hope you have a good monday...hugs :)

put on your gas mask.....

wow this blog lately has turned into my "sick" blog. all this past week i have been sick again with some stupid gastro/intestinal thing. NOT FUN. i have been nauseous and crampy. to put it nicely....if human gas could power the electricity in my house i would have my lights and everything else on 24/7 here and not worry about my bill at the end of the month. oh...and if there were any spiders or other creatures in this house...their dead now with all this fumigating i have been doing.

last night was the only night this week i had to work. guess what? i went...but ended up asking one of the others to extend their shift so i could go home. i was there a whole 50 minutes and had the cold sweats and more nauseous then i had felt all week.

im giving this darn thing until wednesday to evacuate then im heading to the doctors thursday. i hate going to the doctor for the flu or cold cuz all they tell you is to rest and all that but i think with it being this long they well do something. unless of course this gets worse then i have to go in sooner.

during this whole week i also stopped drinking soda because of all the carbination in it in hopes that will slow the gas factor down. its been so hard to not have my diet pepsi everyday...i have been drinking hot tea instead for my caffine intake (which is still way down)...but only in the morning. food wise...not much really. mostly toast. i try to eat other things when i think im feeling a bit better but then the gas and cramping come back again and its back to toast and noodle soup for me the next day.

so how have you been? im hoping all this gets done with soon. 2007 hasnt been the best for me health wise. i know it could be worse and this is minor to what others have to go through but that is what i fear is slowly happening to me.

hope all is well with you....big hugs