Small October update......

Hi all....stopping in to link up my blog to my hubby new "geek" game (sorry to anyone i might offend calling them a geek if you play this game...lol) If you want to become a virtual reality trucker click on the link above.

we are doing good here. school is going ok for kiddo. having a hard time still being prepared for different classes. she is also showing her true "tween" attitude of late with me and im having a hard time ...it always seems like we are arguing.

im no longer at the video store and have been working at one of the local grocery stores in their meals to go area. we do the cold case salads, pizzas to order and also a hot case with fried chicken, wings, baked whole chicken, fries, small cooked hams. its a very busy area of the store and im never bored or have time to relax. only working 2 shifts a week which is what i want.

my knee is doing so so. like before i have good days and bad days. just have to remember to take my pills.

hope all is well with you. big hugs and talk to you again soon.

Anybody still there?......

Just sat here trying to think of what to say on why i havent blogged in over two weeks now. I guess its plain and simple....just havent been in the mood.

first week I was busy with kiddo being gone at camp....and well you know...spending time with hubby and doing other stuff.

I also did some spring cleaning (in the summer) and got rid of lots of stuff. still have our bedrooms to do...but it was a start.

im off work until after september 10th and then im back a couple days a week. im going to see how it goes and decide if its worth the extra little bit of a paycheck or not.

my knee has been so-so...i have good days and bad days no matter what i do i never know how my day is going to be until i get up in the morning and get going. its so odd i can do nothing and it will still be killing. i really hate having this knee problem.

as of this past thursday my stepdad is in the hospital again for breathing problems. he has had ongoing problems now for over a year and things arent getting better...only worse. the doctor has told my mom that they really cant do much more for him and it can be anytime now. this information just has me in a funk and just feeling depressed about the whole thing. im sad for him and im worried about my mom.

there is so much more to this but i will just get more upset talking about it so im not going to right now. i have to decide what im going to do if and when he passes if im going to fly back for the funeral or wait until after all of that and then go after to just be there for my mom. the hard part about all this is deciding to go at all. it would cost me over a thousand dollars to go. i have it on my credit card but its just the fact of using and not having it for things here. and then there is the whole thing about, do i take kiddo with me or not. if i do...that even more money and we really dont have that to spare....so that is easy to decide....but it still bugs me not taking her. if i dont take her will she be ok without me here for 2 weeks while im gone? if i do go im sure it will be after school starts and i always like being here for her with school stuff....even more so right now since she is going to be going to a different school this year (junior high) and dealing with class changing and all that stuff.

i worry about everything. every detail. i was up last night for 2 hours just laying there thinking about things. just have to wait and see what happens and go from there. just dont like being unprepared and no have some kind of plan.

anyway....i added some more trip pictures this morning and still have more to add.

hope you are doing well. hugs

update: spoke with my mom and my step dad is going to be going home today from hospital for now. they have his breathing under control but doctor did say they cant do much more for him other then the meds he is on now. each hospital visit is getting closer to the other each time. so now we just take one day and week at a time.

It's only getting better....

I always dread the end of the television season. the few weeks following are terrible and nothing is on tv to watch. but its slowly getting better.

the summer shows are starting and tv is slowly getting better again (at least for me and hubby).

so far we have: So you think you can dance. there have been 2 episode so far...the auditions. like Idol these are the best and a laugh riot on how delusional some people are on how good they are. i do feel bad for some of them on how clueless they are and seem like they have never seen the show themselves and no clue what calibur of dancer they are looking for.

last night one of our favorite summer show started: Hells Kitchen. oh my gosh this show is harsh. all i have to say about Gordan Ramsey is he would me cry at the very first word out of his mouth towards me. i cant handle someone yelling at me like that.....i guess thats why i know i will never be on this show. lol the contestants this season are lets just say "interesting". after only one show i have no clue who im going to root for...but oh my gosh there are a few (not saying who yet) i feel shouldnt have even been put on the show. i guess you have to have those to make a good show.

there have been a couple other shows that have started that im not a fan of. the pirate one....or should i say the "summer survivor" show. its ok....not for me.....but hubby likes it.

hope you are having a good week so far. mine is ok. knee has been really killing me since i had to stop the meds due to the stomach problems that i have to get under control before he will let me back onto them. so its just tylonal #2 for me and thats it. *sigh* so my depression is trying to get the best of me even though im taking my meds like im supposed to....its so hard.

big hugs to you.....

just a little shade of blue......

as a parent there are days you just wonder why you are a parent. yesterday i felt like the i should have won the worst parent award. for some reason lately kiddo and i have not been seeing eye to eye on anything. from how i see it....all she seems to do is argue every little thing with me...everything!

anyway...yesterday morning wasnt the best and i know we didnt leave on good terms when i dropped her off for school because we always say "i love you" before she gets out of the car and i got nothing but a cold shoulder. i called her back to the car window after she got out and told her that i loved her and she say "ok" but nothing else. i was so upset i gave her a line my gave me a few times when i was a snot. the line....."how bad would you feel if something happened to me today and this is the last time you see me?" she shrugged it off and grunted out..."love you" as she turned and walked away.

i was so upset i cried all the way home. cleared off my face....went back inside the house to finish getting ready to head out for the day with hubby. i was in such a funk all morning. the 45 minute drive into the next town was quiet. we did our stop to CAA for trip stuff and then into Linens N Things and bought a few things because we kinda needed them and i was in the mood to shop. i still dont like buying things just for myself but we bought things for the house.

headed to Michaels for a couple things kiddo needs for a school project and then went to lunch. made hubby pick where he wanted to go...i wasnt in the mood to eat or decide where to eat.
while we waited to order hubby had to step away...as he was away i was on the verge of tears from the events that happened earlier...im just glad he came back quick cuz i almost lost it right there at the table.

we ate at Eastside Marios and found it very good considering im normally not one for italian food as my choice of foods. i had fettichini afredo with shrimp...yummm. dont remember what hubby had but it was some pasta filled things with a nice cheesy sauce.

i feel like my anti -depressents (sp?) are playing tug of war the was two days now. i was feeling very leveled out the past few weeks. nothing bad but nothing good....just ok. for me that is good...the lows arent there like they were 2 months ago. but yesterday and today are so hard for me.

I had to go to the doctors today also because those acid pills i was taking the past few weeks havent really helped and have had 2 other major attacks of gas and abdominal pain from it since taking the pills so i had to go in and let him know. we have ruled out now that its not an acid problem. so....next step is to work our way down from the tummy. we are trying something else now that i have to take now with every meal. long story on what we think it might be and just too much TMI also. either way....i started something new today.

also since the acid thing isnt what is causing my gas and discomfort i can go back on my knee pills also. THANK YOU! my knee is almost back to the way it was before starting the knee meds...meaning i get sharp pains just sitting and doing nothing, sleeping, etc.

im just so frustrated with my health lately. but i am thankful that my anti-depressents are somewhat helping me cuz i know i would be in the dark hole if i wasnt. im only halfway down that hole right now...its KINDA undercontrol (just barely).

work both saturday and sunday this weekend. mother in law isnt coming since im working and i felt a little over whelmed with work, and everything at once to make each night go smooth before going out either to bingo or and evening out with hubby. so she said another time....which is so nice of her. my mental state isnt the greatest lately and she understands that.

enough of my ramble today...just feeling a bit down and tired of feeling sick and tired of the pain in my knee. thank you for listening to me.

hope you are well.....big hugs to you.

I guess an update is overdue.....

So on easter sunday most of the town was snowed in and the roads were crap. our street finally got plowed out sometime after noon and our property management plow did the driveway just after 1pm. i headed out to work about 1:25 taking a bit long to get there with the roads being a bit slushy and full of drifts.

when i get closer to work i notice the parking lot was just being plowed and couldnt get in so i parked it in the next parking lot over until he was done...getting into work just after 2pm and opening the store at 2:20pm. i had a total of 4 customers in 3 hours. i just dont understand why we even had to open that day at all.

I almost didnt get out of there at 5:30 (actually left at 5:50pm) cuz my relief person that was to work at 5pm showed up and then said he had to leave after being there for only 5 minutes because he was having a panic attack and just bolted. its bad enough that i had to work easter sunday and put all my family stuff on hold until i get home but it was managable...then this. i was pissed. so i called the manager to let him know what happened. with all this going on hubby is sick also with a flare up of his diverticulious and i had to get to the drug store before it closed at 6pm in addition to fixing easter dinner for my family.

the manager first said he would come and let me head out to the pharmacy and then come back to work the rest of the day. i was somewhat shocked and i think i sounded a bit angry with him and told him i couldnt i had family things going on at home and i was supposed to be off at 5:30 even if i had only worked 3 hours. my family comes first in my world.

so manager came in since one of the other girls was snowed in and the other guy we have working for us doesnt know how to run the store on his own. we are short staffed again...can you tell?

easter sunday was the longest day in my life for some reason. the stress of getting out of the house that morning then the fiasco with "panic attack boy" and feeling bad for the manager to come in on his day off. but im sorry to say this....thats why HE is the manager and IM NOT.

hubby as been sick all weekend with major pains in his side and taking my tylenol#2 to help ease the pain until we can get him into the doctors monday morning. kiddo had been sick also this weekend with a major sinus cold...so she was lucky to have that 4 day weekend.

doctor wrote hubby out of work for a few days for his symptoms to calm down with antibiotics and pain meds. he is doing a little better today (weds). not sure yet if he is going to work tomorrow.

this post is turning into whine central.....

one comment about my knee....its killing me. still havent been able to go back onto my knee meds just yet so its just not a topic of great joy with me.

other then that things are just grand. im sure there are other things i can ramble about but my mind went blank on my just now for some reason. hope you had a wonderful easter weekend and start to the work week.

hugs to you...

To the doctor I go....

my last post was no april fools joke...I wish it was. Last night was so bad for me that hubby urged me to see the doctor this morning....which I did. from what the doctor could figure out I have big time acid problem with possible burning going on....who knew that could cause such gas problems? anyway...he gave me a prescription for Omerprazole and told me that if he is right I should be feeling better by friday. if not I have to go see him on friday again and we go from there. the pills he said will take a couple days to work so i have to hang in there. the bad part in all this is i have to stop my knee pills until my stomach problems are done cuz those meds can irritate what ever is going on even more.

all i know is im tired of feeling like crap. if it isnt one thing its another and i told the doctor i feel like im falling apart before i even hit 40 and im scared for what is to come as i get older.

hope you have a good monday...hugs :)

yep...its cold.

BRRrrr.....its cold here! the temp right now is -13c with a windchill of -32c and the same will be for tomorrow. i dont mind the snow but when its so cold outside it hurts....its too damn cold!

havent been in the mood to blog lately. im not planning on stopping my blog...i think im just in the usual slump most of us go through. just havent been feeling up to writing about my many downs right now with my knee and my mouth. im still reading all my usual blogs daily and plan on at least posting 2 times a week minimum. who knows...i just might come back like a lion and post a few times a day like some of my regular blogs.

hugs to you and hope all is well.

lets get this week started.....

i feel like my week started on saturday since i work both days this past weekend.

my whole body hurts after going back to work after being off for 6 weeks. not sure yet if my knees going to be able to do it or not...have to give it a few more weeks to decide what im going to do.

had one of the worst customers every yesterday afternoon 2 hours before my shift was over. i cant get over how entitled people think they are and think they can get there way by yelling at you cuz you are following company policy. he was a jerk and thank goodness i wasnt alone in the store at the time...i would have called the cops...but a regular male customer was in the store at the time and watched the guy leave. customers like this guy make me wonder why im in the customer service industry...i certainly dont have to take this crap for minimum wage.

doing nothing but laundry today...wohoo! fun day ahead of me...the life of a queen is never boring....lol

hugs to you.....and have a great week :)

BINGO!!....again....

mother in law is back home again and we are having a lazy sunday.

we went to bingo again yesterday afternoon and yet again I won a mini game and had to split it with someone AGAIN. the prizes at this bingo are much smaller so my take home on the win was only $7.50. so my big winnings for the weekend total &17.50....wohoo!

last night we went to a friends place to have a game night. we took over our Atari flashback2, Clue, and Pop culture trivial pursuit. had a really nice time just hanging out and playing a few games.

other then that nothing new....knee still buggin since meds arent fully back in my system yet...one day at a time as they say.

hope you had a good weekend....big hugs to you.

First Post of 2007.....

HAPPY 2007!!!!

Im really hoping that going out of 2006 sick and coming into 2007 sick is a good sign. I am getting better with the flu part but now since i have been off my knee meds my knee is now officially killing me again. I went to the doctors yesterday morning and he told me that I did the right thing stopping the meds even though he is somewhat sure that I had the flu and to start the meds back up again once I feel better intestinally. I think today is the day. Im going to start off slow though....only 2 of the 3 pills for a few days and then back to normal. wish me luck! the doctor also pulled me from work for a few weeks until we get all this stuff straightened out with my guts and meds to say it nicely.

so as far as how i feel....lets just say im not redecorating the bathroom anymore and im eating more solid foods now. i did make the mistake the other night and ate some potstickers and not thinking about what was in them....cabbage! omg...i was so sick and in pain from the gas it created...felt like i was back to square one again with the flu. but by morning it had passed and new years morning was great.

did our usual new years thing.....cuddle up and watch all the new years eve shows on tv. i did however sleep from 8-11:30pm that night then managed to stay up until about 2:30 watching tv. then in the morning i was up at about 11am fixing breakfast for them and ready to watch the Tournement of Roses Parade. I have never missed the parade since as long as i could remember. I even went once when i was about 5 or 6 years old...i only remember getting up when it was still dark and taking a charter bus there and a bit of the parade. never as an adult did i want to conquer the crowds so i always watched it on tv.

kiddo is off to Mother in laws place for a couple days starting today so me and hubby get some alone time until friday afternoon when i go pick both kiddo and MI up. MI is going to then be staying with us for a couple nights and then we take her home sunday. cant take her to the flee market sunday like i normally do since the place had a major fire 3 weeks ago destroying the bowling alley and the hall that held the flee market.

I have decided to add something new to my blog. every week im going to post a list of Unconscious Mutterings. I came across Typical Woman (sue ellen) having them on her blog and decided to see what they were all about. when ever SueEllen has done it i try to see what my answer would be to those words and i find it very interesting that my answers change depending on the day and mood. here is my first and and there will be a new one each week.

Unconscious Mutterings

Resolution :: none

Happy :: times

Bubbly :: 7-up

Kiss :: me

Leather :: straps

Fancy :: face

Pages :: turn

Stupid :: flu

Apologize :: why

Secrets :: shhhhhh

hugs to you and hope all is well.

a little bit of everything....

I have to say last night I laughed more at a tv show then i have in a very long time. we were watching the Saturday Night Live. hubby taped this past weekend for me since Justin Timberlake was hosting and thought i might be interested in it (he is so sweet). if you missed it you have to see if you can find it on youtube...(here is the link to one of the skits)...it was consistantly funny and OMG i almost peed my pants a couple times laughing. oh....and we also watched that new game show on nbc...Identity. it wasnt bad at all. we had fun playing along guessing the identity of each person.

we have a few flurries this morning...but nothing much to give us a white christmas. funny how four winters has changed my perspective on what a white christmas really is. it feels very odd for us not to have snow right now (from what i know).

all my shopping is done and i've wrapped a few things. going to finish up the wrapping today. HO HO HO!

im reading a new book for the holiday season....i bought a series of books only cuz the one that is out currently now is the 3rd in a series so i had to get the other 2 and start from the beginning. its Deck the Halls by mary and carol higgings-clark. im really enjoying the book since the series of books revolve around the christmas time.

an update on the knee....its just ok. still hurts but not a 10 on the scale. it peaks around a 7 now and not as often. the pills im taking can take up to 2 weeks for them to be in the system full stregnth and im a week down tomorrow. im having to take a tylenol#2 to sleep at night ...i tried going without it for 4 nights but the knee just wouldnt let me sleep so i took on last night and slept a little better...but not great. one day at a time.

so are you done shopping? wrapping?

have a great day today and hugs to you.....