Anybody still there?......
Just sat here trying to think of what to say on why i havent blogged in over two weeks now. I guess its plain and simple....just havent been in the mood.
first week I was busy with kiddo being gone at camp....and well you know...spending time with hubby and doing other stuff.
I also did some spring cleaning (in the summer) and got rid of lots of stuff. still have our bedrooms to do...but it was a start.
im off work until after september 10th and then im back a couple days a week. im going to see how it goes and decide if its worth the extra little bit of a paycheck or not.
my knee has been so-so...i have good days and bad days no matter what i do i never know how my day is going to be until i get up in the morning and get going. its so odd i can do nothing and it will still be killing. i really hate having this knee problem.
as of this past thursday my stepdad is in the hospital again for breathing problems. he has had ongoing problems now for over a year and things arent getting better...only worse. the doctor has told my mom that they really cant do much more for him and it can be anytime now. this information just has me in a funk and just feeling depressed about the whole thing. im sad for him and im worried about my mom.
there is so much more to this but i will just get more upset talking about it so im not going to right now. i have to decide what im going to do if and when he passes if im going to fly back for the funeral or wait until after all of that and then go after to just be there for my mom. the hard part about all this is deciding to go at all. it would cost me over a thousand dollars to go. i have it on my credit card but its just the fact of using and not having it for things here. and then there is the whole thing about, do i take kiddo with me or not. if i do...that even more money and we really dont have that to spare....so that is easy to decide....but it still bugs me not taking her. if i dont take her will she be ok without me here for 2 weeks while im gone? if i do go im sure it will be after school starts and i always like being here for her with school stuff....even more so right now since she is going to be going to a different school this year (junior high) and dealing with class changing and all that stuff.
i worry about everything. every detail. i was up last night for 2 hours just laying there thinking about things. just have to wait and see what happens and go from there. just dont like being unprepared and no have some kind of plan.
anyway....i added some more trip pictures this morning and still have more to add.
hope you are doing well. hugs
update: spoke with my mom and my step dad is going to be going home today from hospital for now. they have his breathing under control but doctor did say they cant do much more for him other then the meds he is on now. each hospital visit is getting closer to the other each time. so now we just take one day and week at a time.
first week I was busy with kiddo being gone at camp....and well you know...spending time with hubby and doing other stuff.
I also did some spring cleaning (in the summer) and got rid of lots of stuff. still have our bedrooms to do...but it was a start.
im off work until after september 10th and then im back a couple days a week. im going to see how it goes and decide if its worth the extra little bit of a paycheck or not.
my knee has been so-so...i have good days and bad days no matter what i do i never know how my day is going to be until i get up in the morning and get going. its so odd i can do nothing and it will still be killing. i really hate having this knee problem.
as of this past thursday my stepdad is in the hospital again for breathing problems. he has had ongoing problems now for over a year and things arent getting better...only worse. the doctor has told my mom that they really cant do much more for him and it can be anytime now. this information just has me in a funk and just feeling depressed about the whole thing. im sad for him and im worried about my mom.
there is so much more to this but i will just get more upset talking about it so im not going to right now. i have to decide what im going to do if and when he passes if im going to fly back for the funeral or wait until after all of that and then go after to just be there for my mom. the hard part about all this is deciding to go at all. it would cost me over a thousand dollars to go. i have it on my credit card but its just the fact of using and not having it for things here. and then there is the whole thing about, do i take kiddo with me or not. if i do...that even more money and we really dont have that to spare....so that is easy to decide....but it still bugs me not taking her. if i dont take her will she be ok without me here for 2 weeks while im gone? if i do go im sure it will be after school starts and i always like being here for her with school stuff....even more so right now since she is going to be going to a different school this year (junior high) and dealing with class changing and all that stuff.
i worry about everything. every detail. i was up last night for 2 hours just laying there thinking about things. just have to wait and see what happens and go from there. just dont like being unprepared and no have some kind of plan.
anyway....i added some more trip pictures this morning and still have more to add.
hope you are doing well. hugs
update: spoke with my mom and my step dad is going to be going home today from hospital for now. they have his breathing under control but doctor did say they cant do much more for him other then the meds he is on now. each hospital visit is getting closer to the other each time. so now we just take one day and week at a time.
posted by CaliGirl at
3:11 p.m.
