FINE!...I went, ok?.....

It's all over. I went this morning and had my front tooth fixed that I chicked out on doing last week. getting the injections made me cry this time....i wasnt proud that i did but im done and its all over now.

i have to say though that having a dentist that is so nice and not bad to look at either is a plus. but still...its those damn injections that kill me every time.

I had a wonderful mothers day of eating and doing nothing. her quasadillas she made me for breakfast were really good. when we had lobster for lunch we had fun playing with them first and then we all enjoyed eating them around the table. kiddo tried lobster for the first time ...she totally loved it and is now a lobster crazed person like me...lol.

hubby is still home sick with me....this is week number 3. it took this cough a full 2 weeks before it started to go away...just this past saturday he was finally feeling better and as of sunday he has been with no cough at all and we are both sleeping much better. now he is home just getting his energy back and recouping from all the coughing and no sleep he got over the past two weeks.

i love having him home with me during the days...but i also feel bad that im anxious for hime to get back to work (tues, may 22nd) so i can have some alone time. im so bad!

hope you are having a good week so far and it continues.

hugs to you

And one more thing I forgot....

friday morning when i woke up i realized that a filling that was in my front tooth had come out. yep...i lost a filling in my front tooth! so i called the dentist office that morning and he was out and not in until tuesday.

guess what? i have a dentist appointment today to get this fixed. im so full of anxiety this morning i hardly slept last night. of all the teeth that this happed to this is the worst for me. its the injections they have to give to numb it that bother me the most and for some reason they seem to hurt me most when dealing with the front teeth.

i keep tossing in my head about cancelling out and going until next week but then i will be a nervous reck all week again and to top it off i wont be smiling all week since i have a partial tooth showing.

hope you are having a good week so far. let you know how this goes....wish me luck!

hugs

edit...10:50am: I CHICKENED OUT! i just couldnt do it today. my anxiety level is just too high. i know the only way i can do this is to have my appoinment first thing in the morning after i get them off to school and work with no sitting around thinking about whats to come. i made another appointment for next week at 9am. yeah im chickenshit and i know it.

update sunday....

Im still here and didnt leave you. I just didnt feel like making anymore whining posts about my mouth and knee this week so i took some time away from writing. but since im here....my knee is so so as usual and my mouth is healing really show and think i have to go into the dentist to have him check it out. its still really sore around the extraction area....i might need some antibiotics.

I do have lots of pictures of our night thursday when we went to our towns new hockey arena to share and also i tried to get some shots of the lunar eclipse last night but i still have to download them, so they are coming soon and will let you know.

this will happen sometime tonight since im off to work here shortly for the day....WOHOO! I LOVE WORKING SUNDAYS!

hope all is well with you

Time to heal....

I survived! the dentist only pulled the tooth that had to be filled and wanted to wait on the other things that needed to be done until this healed. he said he had to work the little booger out (it didnt want to go) but other then that it came out just fine. im very sore still 24 hours later but no swelling as of yet...he said if there was going to be anything odd to happen it will happen after 48 hours.

anyway...im off here to eat my lemon pudding and close my eyes for a bit.

happy hump day! hugs :)

Today is the day....

I go to the dentist this morning to have a filling (or a few) done and to get a tooth pulled. i have been a mess the past few days worrying about this day.

I just want it over with. im leaving here in 45 minutes with a hubby here to greet me when i get home...he is home sick with the flu. was home with me yesterday also.

well let you know how it went when i get home and feel like sitting at the computer.

hugs to you

Didnt chicken out....

Well, I went today to my dentist appointment. my head hurts right now from stress and anxiety and minor things done this morning. i did however chicken out of something. he also wanted to pull one of my molars that is beyond repair and i told him i would do it next week when i can prepare myself for it (im such a chicken shit). he thinks the pain im experiencing is from this tooth and wants to get it out before we move onto the other two teeth i thought i was having major problems with....the pain im having down toward those teeth is coming from this other one...go figure. he said after that tooth is pulled he wanted to see if the pain went away and if so we will crown those others since that is what i was to do with them almost a year ago. *sigh* i hate going to the dentist. one...because of the pain i have to endure every time i go even if i go just for a cleaning / check up ....there is always something. two...the cost of things when i let this stuff go. the extraction will only cost me $25'ish or so after my 80% is covered but the crowns are going to cost me over $500 each out of my own pocket after insurance....WTF? not sure what orifice im going to pull that money out of but it has to get done.

my next appointment is on tuesday morning to get that tooth pulled. not thrilled ..in fact...im nervous as hell ...but like i keep saying...it has to get done. arghhh.

on another note...I have to say how proud i am of my kiddo. i had mentioned before about us wanting her to try air cadets when she turns twelve. well....last night she went to one of their weekly meetings to see how she would like it (she is also going to go next week also). when we left her there we were both a little worried she wouldnt want to participate or not talk with people. we were so happy to see her smiling and happy when we got there to pick her up. some of the other girls were making it a point to say bye to her and even one of the boys came up to her and gave her a high five. she said she had a great time and even made some new friends (that is such an achievement for her since she normally doesnt open up to others). she says she really liked it and wants to join just after this first week. but we want her to go to 2 more meetings to really see how it is only because each week during the month is a little different. last night was mostly about how to care for your uniform (which she wont have until we sign her up), how to iron, polishing your shoes, and how your hair should be worn. the is happy that she wont have to pull it back in a bun since her hair is short and about the collar. next week from what i know they are having regular cadet class time which range from classes on airplane engines, weather, drill, being a good citizen, etc. if she chooses she can also learn an instrument there and be in the band they have for marching. i was very pleased with what i saw last night and hope this is something that will help her grow in confidence and make some friends. next week we will get the paper work to fill out and with one more meeting after that she will have her uniform for her first official meeting three days after her birthday.

so with both of those things going on in my head my thoughts go from being very proud of kiddo to full of anxiety over my teeth problems. oh the joys of ups and downs.

fun fact about me: I prefer fountain soda/pop over bottle or can.

have a good rest of your day.....hugs

edit.....i told hubby i did a post that was about a little bit of everything. he asked if put how handsome he was in my blog. i laughed and told her "no, wasnt talking about him". he replied that i had just told him i wrote a post that was a little bit about EVERYTHING and i should edit my post. so there you go sweetie....i mentioned how sexy and handsome you are. oh and did i mention how funny you are?.....FUNNY LOOKING!!! bwahahahahahaaaaaaaaa :p~~

This, That and maybe a little bit more.....

Yesterday seemed like the longest day to me. after I dropped off hubby and kiddo where they had to be i went down to the waterfront, parked the car and watched a large cargo ship unload whatever it was onto trucks down below on the dock. that lasted about a hour until i realized i hadnt taken my knee pill yet and if i didnt get it in soon i would only be able to get 2 in not 3....so off i went back home to veg.

if you were wondering about or who i was mad at yesterday that made me feel like i wanted to commit myself to the crazy house it was kiddo. no details....lets just say she is pushing her "im almost a teenager" attitude a bit too far with me in the mornings...and im so not a morning person. hubby is actually the one helping me through all this. i feel like he is walking on eggshells though around me for fear im going to explode towards him (although i have snapped a few times at him but only out of frustration of whatelse is going on around me).

on top of all that...im still harboring that anger towards the ASSHOLE (the ex). i just cant seem to let it go and here its been 5 years now since me or my daughter has seen his ugly mug. anyway....thats part of my emotions.

my knee stuff still. and now for the past month i have been denying the pain i have been having in my mouth on the back bottom side of my mouth. its now i think getting to a point i cant ignore it anymore and it just terrifies me to have to go to the dentist. so that stress isnt helping me either.

going back to work saturday is stressing me out also....and thoughts of whether or not i really need this $200-$300 extra a month job is nagging me and i dont know what to do. its not like i work a lot....2-3 shifts a week...but still. i have to go back and see how my knee does and just go from there.

plus i have to at least stick it out until summertime. dont need us in the hole any farther then we are or the little summer trip we are planning isnt going to happen. that is going to be covered by our tax return for the most part but still have to have another thousand to cover it all. more about this another time.

i go back to the doctors in 3 weeks and i think im going to have to talk to him about my depression again and i really do think i have to get on something to help. the rollercoaster of emotions has been getting worse the past few months and the episodes seem to be staying longer. yay...more pills!!

oh...btw...the weather today is frigid... the last on the radio i heard it was -20c with a windchill of -35c. BURRRRRR! and no...they didnt cancel school either. the radio station was getting so many calls (like they control the school board) asking if they just didnt read it or people missed the closers. nope...school was a go today.

so off i took them to work and school.... i came back home instead of going out to the grocery store and freezing anymore than I already was and took a nice hot shower and some breakfast before popping onto here to bitch and whine...lol the store isnt going anywhere and we arent in any great need for anything specific at this moment.

oh i could go on about tv stuff and other celebrity gossip but then you would be reading another full page and i can ramble on endlessly especially when im all emotional and stuff. so im not.

but i will leave you with this little fun fact about me....

my favorite icecream is: rainbow sherbet