This, That and maybe a little bit more.....
Yesterday seemed like the longest day to me. after I dropped off hubby and kiddo where they had to be i went down to the waterfront, parked the car and watched a large cargo ship unload whatever it was onto trucks down below on the dock. that lasted about a hour until i realized i hadnt taken my knee pill yet and if i didnt get it in soon i would only be able to get 2 in not 3....so off i went back home to veg.
if you were wondering about or who i was mad at yesterday that made me feel like i wanted to commit myself to the crazy house it was kiddo. no details....lets just say she is pushing her "im almost a teenager" attitude a bit too far with me in the mornings...and im so not a morning person. hubby is actually the one helping me through all this. i feel like he is walking on eggshells though around me for fear im going to explode towards him (although i have snapped a few times at him but only out of frustration of whatelse is going on around me).
on top of all that...im still harboring that anger towards the ASSHOLE (the ex). i just cant seem to let it go and here its been 5 years now since me or my daughter has seen his ugly mug. anyway....thats part of my emotions.
my knee stuff still. and now for the past month i have been denying the pain i have been having in my mouth on the back bottom side of my mouth. its now i think getting to a point i cant ignore it anymore and it just terrifies me to have to go to the dentist. so that stress isnt helping me either.
going back to work saturday is stressing me out also....and thoughts of whether or not i really need this $200-$300 extra a month job is nagging me and i dont know what to do. its not like i work a lot....2-3 shifts a week...but still. i have to go back and see how my knee does and just go from there.
plus i have to at least stick it out until summertime. dont need us in the hole any farther then we are or the little summer trip we are planning isnt going to happen. that is going to be covered by our tax return for the most part but still have to have another thousand to cover it all. more about this another time.
i go back to the doctors in 3 weeks and i think im going to have to talk to him about my depression again and i really do think i have to get on something to help. the rollercoaster of emotions has been getting worse the past few months and the episodes seem to be staying longer. yay...more pills!!
oh...btw...the weather today is frigid... the last on the radio i heard it was -20c with a windchill of -35c. BURRRRRR! and no...they didnt cancel school either. the radio station was getting so many calls (like they control the school board) asking if they just didnt read it or people missed the closers. nope...school was a go today.
so off i took them to work and school.... i came back home instead of going out to the grocery store and freezing anymore than I already was and took a nice hot shower and some breakfast before popping onto here to bitch and whine...lol the store isnt going anywhere and we arent in any great need for anything specific at this moment.
oh i could go on about tv stuff and other celebrity gossip but then you would be reading another full page and i can ramble on endlessly especially when im all emotional and stuff. so im not.
but i will leave you with this little fun fact about me....
my favorite icecream is: rainbow sherbet
if you were wondering about or who i was mad at yesterday that made me feel like i wanted to commit myself to the crazy house it was kiddo. no details....lets just say she is pushing her "im almost a teenager" attitude a bit too far with me in the mornings...and im so not a morning person. hubby is actually the one helping me through all this. i feel like he is walking on eggshells though around me for fear im going to explode towards him (although i have snapped a few times at him but only out of frustration of whatelse is going on around me).
on top of all that...im still harboring that anger towards the ASSHOLE (the ex). i just cant seem to let it go and here its been 5 years now since me or my daughter has seen his ugly mug. anyway....thats part of my emotions.
my knee stuff still. and now for the past month i have been denying the pain i have been having in my mouth on the back bottom side of my mouth. its now i think getting to a point i cant ignore it anymore and it just terrifies me to have to go to the dentist. so that stress isnt helping me either.
going back to work saturday is stressing me out also....and thoughts of whether or not i really need this $200-$300 extra a month job is nagging me and i dont know what to do. its not like i work a lot....2-3 shifts a week...but still. i have to go back and see how my knee does and just go from there.
plus i have to at least stick it out until summertime. dont need us in the hole any farther then we are or the little summer trip we are planning isnt going to happen. that is going to be covered by our tax return for the most part but still have to have another thousand to cover it all. more about this another time.
i go back to the doctors in 3 weeks and i think im going to have to talk to him about my depression again and i really do think i have to get on something to help. the rollercoaster of emotions has been getting worse the past few months and the episodes seem to be staying longer. yay...more pills!!
oh...btw...the weather today is frigid... the last on the radio i heard it was -20c with a windchill of -35c. BURRRRRR! and no...they didnt cancel school either. the radio station was getting so many calls (like they control the school board) asking if they just didnt read it or people missed the closers. nope...school was a go today.
so off i took them to work and school.... i came back home instead of going out to the grocery store and freezing anymore than I already was and took a nice hot shower and some breakfast before popping onto here to bitch and whine...lol the store isnt going anywhere and we arent in any great need for anything specific at this moment.
oh i could go on about tv stuff and other celebrity gossip but then you would be reading another full page and i can ramble on endlessly especially when im all emotional and stuff. so im not.
but i will leave you with this little fun fact about me....
my favorite icecream is: rainbow sherbet
Labels: anger, dentist, doctor, icecream, job, kiddo, trip, weather
posted by CaliGirl at
9:45 a.m.
