Didnt chicken out....

Well, I went today to my dentist appointment. my head hurts right now from stress and anxiety and minor things done this morning. i did however chicken out of something. he also wanted to pull one of my molars that is beyond repair and i told him i would do it next week when i can prepare myself for it (im such a chicken shit). he thinks the pain im experiencing is from this tooth and wants to get it out before we move onto the other two teeth i thought i was having major problems with....the pain im having down toward those teeth is coming from this other one...go figure. he said after that tooth is pulled he wanted to see if the pain went away and if so we will crown those others since that is what i was to do with them almost a year ago. *sigh* i hate going to the dentist. one...because of the pain i have to endure every time i go even if i go just for a cleaning / check up ....there is always something. two...the cost of things when i let this stuff go. the extraction will only cost me $25'ish or so after my 80% is covered but the crowns are going to cost me over $500 each out of my own pocket after insurance....WTF? not sure what orifice im going to pull that money out of but it has to get done.

my next appointment is on tuesday morning to get that tooth pulled. not thrilled ..in fact...im nervous as hell ...but like i keep saying...it has to get done. arghhh.

on another note...I have to say how proud i am of my kiddo. i had mentioned before about us wanting her to try air cadets when she turns twelve. well....last night she went to one of their weekly meetings to see how she would like it (she is also going to go next week also). when we left her there we were both a little worried she wouldnt want to participate or not talk with people. we were so happy to see her smiling and happy when we got there to pick her up. some of the other girls were making it a point to say bye to her and even one of the boys came up to her and gave her a high five. she said she had a great time and even made some new friends (that is such an achievement for her since she normally doesnt open up to others). she says she really liked it and wants to join just after this first week. but we want her to go to 2 more meetings to really see how it is only because each week during the month is a little different. last night was mostly about how to care for your uniform (which she wont have until we sign her up), how to iron, polishing your shoes, and how your hair should be worn. the is happy that she wont have to pull it back in a bun since her hair is short and about the collar. next week from what i know they are having regular cadet class time which range from classes on airplane engines, weather, drill, being a good citizen, etc. if she chooses she can also learn an instrument there and be in the band they have for marching. i was very pleased with what i saw last night and hope this is something that will help her grow in confidence and make some friends. next week we will get the paper work to fill out and with one more meeting after that she will have her uniform for her first official meeting three days after her birthday.

so with both of those things going on in my head my thoughts go from being very proud of kiddo to full of anxiety over my teeth problems. oh the joys of ups and downs.

fun fact about me: I prefer fountain soda/pop over bottle or can.

have a good rest of your day.....hugs

edit.....i told hubby i did a post that was about a little bit of everything. he asked if put how handsome he was in my blog. i laughed and told her "no, wasnt talking about him". he replied that i had just told him i wrote a post that was a little bit about EVERYTHING and i should edit my post. so there you go sweetie....i mentioned how sexy and handsome you are. oh and did i mention how funny you are?.....FUNNY LOOKING!!! bwahahahahahaaaaaaaaa :p~~