Another school year is starting today.....

YAY! Im alone again! Another year is underway here and it was pouring rain during that rush hour of getting all the kids to school in town. YAY! kiddo is starting grade 8 this year and it seems to be smooth so far. she was excited to get back and yesterday we went by to see if we could get her list early so she didnt have too much first day anxiety....we did and she is still excited...lol other then the rain this morning everything went great and its quiet now in my house...only me typing on the keyboard.

on August 30th me and hubby celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary. i really cant believe its been 6 years already...it feels odd... in some ways it feels like only yesterday we met, fell in love and i moved here to marry him. but in other ways its like we have known each other for many many years and married longer then six years. Im still as much in love with him as i was when we first started talking to each other. there certainly is something to say about that.

"love you sweetie!"

Im still waiting to hear back from Imigration Canada about my papers. its been 2 months and a day since they got my papers in their hot little hands. now they are officially over the "average" wait time for the first stage of waiting. once this goes through then i will be able to watch the status of my file. but until them im in the dark.

today im feeling like crap. have a nasty chest cold that just isnt moving and it hurts to cough and my throat is all tore up. started antibiotics yesterday, so im hoping things will start to improve by tomorrow or over the weekend. I WANT SLEEP!....and im tired of coughing.

hope things are well with you and yours. be safe and much love to you.

nice and breezy

nice and breezy
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things went well at my moms with other family members making it in for my step dads gathering. i didnt make it out due to the cost of airfare. 3x's what it was in May when i went to vegas. mom assured me not to worry and dont feel guilty but i still do. anyway...she is handling all this well. Harolds sister was there when he passed and stayed for 5 days to help out.

other then that....just wanted to post that i added a lot (about 90) photos to my flickr site. have some pictures from the Pride Parade we went to, the redo of my daughters room, a few from our trip to the zoo, and island stuff.

hope all is well with you....hugs :)

feeling lost......

not sure how im writing this right now...and exactly what to say.

my step dad of 25yrs passed way last night at home peacefully after suffering a long battle after having a major stroke a few years ago. everything kept going down hill for him after that. he was a strong, funny and active man until all that hit him. he took it very hard he couldnt work anymore and just withdrew. the past year has been really hard for my mom taking care of him. his breathing was always the big problem. we knew this day was coming but it always hurts when they leave us. I know now he is in a better place now.

i worry about my mom now and how she is going to deal with all this. she is strong...or at least comes off strong but i know how she is deep down....and im so sad for her right now. she is so tired ...the past week has been the hardest for her having had harold on hospice care in their bedroom. I cant imagine and dont know if i could do it myself when and if that time ever comes.

the littlest one in all this....ashley. 5 yrs old and adores Harold and helped care for him as best she could. my mom told me she is lost right now and is asking where he is. she wasnt home when all this went down yesterday and when she got home he was gone. im in tears thinking about how she must feel loosing her buddy who listened to her and loved to have her help do things.

i know this was expected but i cant stop feeling sad and crying. THIS SUCKS! i just cant get accept death. never have....and i dont think i ever well. i hate going to funerals and wakes. i have only been to a few of them only due to the fact they were family. other then that...i avoid them just because i cant deal with death.

....love you Harold.

Im sure looking forward to winter......

Well well, this month has been one big roller coaster at our house and for the family.

the beginning of the month had me down and out with all the teeth issues and drug withdrawls. as far as that is going my mouth now is 90% feeling better and no more withdrawl symptoms from all the codine i was taking.

kiddo went to camp again this year and had a great time. this year she was in the "teen" camp and they did lots of fun activies....but she didnt do some of them cuz she had a big problem with the bugs/mosquitos (she has a major phobia). she came back all stinky and needing a shower so i know she had fun...lol

we dropped her off at camp that saturday morning....we did a bit of running around Charlottetown with his mom. we went to a strawberry social event and had some great strawberry shortcake. we took her to do her grocery shopping.

after dropping off his mom we went to lunch on our own then waited for the Pride Parade that was scheduled in town for that day. IT WAS GREAT! we had a fun time at the parade and then went to the park for the rally and just hung out with a great bunch of people in the GLTB community.

during the week kiddo was at camp we re-did her bedroom. OMG, we through out over 100lbs of trash from her room and other stuff we had around. No lie, they weigh your car when you into waste management and then when you come out. INSANE. Oh, and the dust! my allergies were so bad all this week from the cleaning out of things the benedryl wasnt even helping. at the end of everyday we were so tired from cleaning, taking apart furniture and sorting junk.

got her a new bed, desk for homework and crafts (we dont allow her a computer in her room), new book case, two large rolling organizer draweres and a few new posters she had been talking about. we finished it the day before she was due home....i think it looks great and i wish it was my room (if i was a teenager).

during this week my mom informs me that my stepdad is in the hospital again. and they will know more as the week goes on if he is going to have to go into hospice care or not this time.

on the morning of pick up day for kiddo we get a call from hubbys oldest sister telling us that his mom was in the hospital over night. from what she was told, his mom who two months ago had a stroke...had gotten up during the night and while in the bathroom she passed out and fell to the ground. she was there for two hours until she was able to drag herself to the phone and call 911. the senior home didnt call any of the family. the only way any of us found out was his mom calling one of sister to come pick her up from the hospital.

doctor now informed us that she really shouldnt be alone for a minimum of three days...thats taken care of with her staying at one of hubbys sisters homes. then after that she is going to stay with one of her grandkids house until next thursday then with us for the following weekend.

things have already been decided she cant live alone anymore unfortunatly so hubbys older sister was planning on a move end of next month anyway so they are going to get a bigger place and have her live with them. my mother in law was ok with it and understands her situation which is a great deal of pressure off all of us since she agrees.

Kiddo LOVE LOVE LOVED her room. she cant stop saying how much she loves it. im so happy she does because we put so much work into getting things cleaned, old stuff sold, new stuff bought and put togetther.

called my mom tonight to find out she was in the middle of making calls to all the family (hadnt gotten to me yet) that my step dad isnt doing great and IS going to be going into hospice care and only given a month. didnt talk to my mom long since she was busy but will find out more tomorrow and talk to her then.

we were supposed to have a yard sale tomorrow but as our luck has it....we are due for lots of rain overnight into tomorrow and ending late afternoon. yeahhhhhhhh. so...we try again next weekend even if his mom is here. im planning on her not doing a darn thing when she is here and my foot is down on that. but we have to do this yard sale...i have so much stuff now to get rid of since cleaning everything out. oh well....now we have a nice relaxing weekend instead.

im so tired. physically and emotionally. hope all is well with you this mid summers day. Oh, and if I hadnt mentioned it yet....I cant stand summer! the humidity and the summer bugs are driving me nuts.

hugs

Anyone still there?.....

for anyone still checking in on this darn thing, Im still here alive and breathing. It has been a hell of a month for me.

last I spoke i was not in the best of moods due to several things going on. one of which as been my dental problems that have been bothering me since i got back from my vacation the beginning of May.

long story a little shortened.....one root canal....5 fillings...2 of which were very deep and worse then having root canals. one of the fills ended up inflaming the root and the only option was to pull it since it was a tooth that was so built up it wasnt worth saving. then....while that was done an infection was brewing along where the other fillings were done causing pain from my ear, down the side of my face to my neck. got antibiotics for that. THEN....the extracted tooth area decided to become a "dry socket" and had to have this gross soaked piece of gauze packed into it and pain flared up again in that area. oh...and on top of all that...im currently going through codeine withdrawal from all the Tylenol #2's i have been taking....major headache and cold sweats.

it has not been a fun 4 weeks for me and havent been to work either due to it. just not in the mood for anything or anyone. sucks really. there is so much house work that isnt getting done and its driving me nuts.

today....im feeling about a 5 out of 10, which is pretty darn good. havent felt this good in weeks.

after Canada Day (which we didnt do anything this year) I decided to get my butt in gear and turn in my citizenship papers. Watching those going through their ceremony made me wish it was me standing there taking the oath.

so...I have had the application filled out since April. all i had to get done was take the 2 pictures they need and pay the fees. THAT WAS DONE TODAY!

im putting the papers in the mail tomorrow....July 4th! kinda symbolic IMO ...starting my Canadian citizenship process on independence day. im very excited that this is now in the works and around this time next year I hope to be a Canadian Citizen.