Five years ago today....February 8th I came to PEI for the first time. Exactly 5 years ago at this very moment i was on a plane only 6 hours away from physically seeing the man that will turn out to be my prince charming.
**on a side note...this trip in a plane was only my second flight in my life. the first one was when i was 9 years old back in 1976. this flight was also only 5 months after 9/11 so that made for even more nervousness.
2:30pm AST (1:30est) I landed at the Charlottetown Airport and walked off the plane into a winter wonderland. I had never been in snow before and to my joy it was snowing when i came down the stairway off the plane. I was like a kid looking into the air in the marval of seeing white fluffy stuff coming from the sky. but then in an instant i was worried about falling on the slippery tarmak (sp?) that was covered with a great layer of snow.
As i got closer to the doors of the airport that kid like joy turned into nervousness again. is he going to like me when he sees me in person even though we spent many many hours on video cam talking to each other and many pictures exchanged...not like he hasnt ever seen me. I went to PEI to see my wonderful friend that had made me feel human again and someone that made me laugh every minute i talked to him. i had no intention of falling in love as hard as i did.
he was there waiting for me as i came out of the cold into the airport with two of his female friends that drove him out there. he thought i would be more comfy meeting him with others around and that they were female not guys with him. we hugged... which seemed never ending...got my luggage and started our way to his home.
on our drive home we sat in the back seat of his friends Rav4. i took his hand and held it...he was so nervous that his hand was shaking. i just held his hand and we all had a nice talk during the drive.
i spent 2 weeks here just hanging out and getting to know him. that was also our first valentines day together and he suprised me with roses (delivered to his place where i was while he was at work that day) and a wonderful dinner out.
so many details about my trip to see him but the importance of this post was how much February 8th means to me. this is the 5 year anniversary of a love for a friend that grew into so much more. the first day we touched with a hug and the holding of nervous hands.
i knew the day i was walking back onto the plane sobbing i had found someone that was meant for me. i cried quietly almost all the 11 hours i had on my flights. my heart was hurting that i had to leave this man behind and i would never see him again. but after a few months of talking we knew what was meant to be and i decide to make a life changing decision and move to Canada. but that would come after kiddo got out of school cuz i didnt want to interrupt her life at that moment just for my happiness....that would come at the end of june.
i had many people tell me i was crazy to do such a drastic thing but i also had so many more tell me they wish they could just drop everything and change their life. i needed to be happy and that change in my life was for me. it was selfish to some but not for me.....IT WAS FOR MY OWN HAPPINESS. and after seeing how this has effected my child....her happiness as well. It was the best thing in my life i have ever done.
he is my angel. he saved me and showed me what it was like again to be loved and how someone should really be treated. he is also the best thing that has happened for my (our) daughter, he is a great step dad to her and she adores him greatly.
I love you sweetie. 5 years of love started on this day.
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