thank you for the kind words, hugs and prayers.... i really need them right now and they give me strength.
a couple of you asked how close me and MS are and all i have to say to that is not really. never really have been even as kids....we are like apples and oranges...day and night in every possible way. we never got along as kids and always fought...but as we got older we learned to tolorate each other and be grown-ups. we got along in a way that we were civalized at family things and so on...but never went to lunch with each other just to hang out.
i dont know about calling her and wishing them well. but i am going to get a card sometime this week (for the baby) and get it mailed out priority mail (so it gets there quicker then in over a week). and...i am putting a small note in with the card for MS to tell her that im hurt and very she never told me herself about this great event in our lives...and leave it at that...letting her respond to me.
im searching very deep inside me to forgive her for whatever reason she has for doing this....and its very hard...but im going to be the better person in all this.
the past few days have been hard on my to the point it hit me physically along with the mental side of all this. the past two nights i have gone to bed around 6pm each night and stayed in bed until i had to get up in the morning. the first night not sleeping very well considering all the hours. then last night i went to bed right after dinner (again around 6pm) cuz my tummy was all upset and felt terrible. i even dreamed that maybe i have some illness that is bringing me down...worst of them all cancer. (my biggest fear) not only has it been the past few days i have been fatigued...but other days also...just drained for no real reason. but i want to think that this fatigue and down feeling is all due to everything going on mentally with my depression and so on.
with the urging of hubby...i went today to get my blood work done that i had a lab slip for that i got from my doctor a week ago when i saw him. i have just been putting it off ...one i hate having blood drawn and two...the fear of finding something wrong cuz of the way i have been feeling. the results will be back sometime at the beginning of next week.
btw...its friggin cold outside...today is -13c with a windchill in the -20's. burrr....its actually warmer today then i has been the past 2 days...but since winter has been warmer then normal it feels even colder outside since we havent had to deal with such cold temps.
again...thank you for the wonderful comments, hugs and encouragement. nice to know others care about me outside these walls.
hugs to you
a couple of you asked how close me and MS are and all i have to say to that is not really. never really have been even as kids....we are like apples and oranges...day and night in every possible way. we never got along as kids and always fought...but as we got older we learned to tolorate each other and be grown-ups. we got along in a way that we were civalized at family things and so on...but never went to lunch with each other just to hang out.
i dont know about calling her and wishing them well. but i am going to get a card sometime this week (for the baby) and get it mailed out priority mail (so it gets there quicker then in over a week). and...i am putting a small note in with the card for MS to tell her that im hurt and very she never told me herself about this great event in our lives...and leave it at that...letting her respond to me.
im searching very deep inside me to forgive her for whatever reason she has for doing this....and its very hard...but im going to be the better person in all this.
the past few days have been hard on my to the point it hit me physically along with the mental side of all this. the past two nights i have gone to bed around 6pm each night and stayed in bed until i had to get up in the morning. the first night not sleeping very well considering all the hours. then last night i went to bed right after dinner (again around 6pm) cuz my tummy was all upset and felt terrible. i even dreamed that maybe i have some illness that is bringing me down...worst of them all cancer. (my biggest fear) not only has it been the past few days i have been fatigued...but other days also...just drained for no real reason. but i want to think that this fatigue and down feeling is all due to everything going on mentally with my depression and so on.
with the urging of hubby...i went today to get my blood work done that i had a lab slip for that i got from my doctor a week ago when i saw him. i have just been putting it off ...one i hate having blood drawn and two...the fear of finding something wrong cuz of the way i have been feeling. the results will be back sometime at the beginning of next week.
btw...its friggin cold outside...today is -13c with a windchill in the -20's. burrr....its actually warmer today then i has been the past 2 days...but since winter has been warmer then normal it feels even colder outside since we havent had to deal with such cold temps.
again...thank you for the wonderful comments, hugs and encouragement. nice to know others care about me outside these walls.
hugs to you
posted by CaliGirl at
1:48 p.m.
