How would you feel if..........

1. one of you sisters doesnt tell you she is pregnant? you find out by your mom asking if you had talked to her or your other sister. ummm....no havent heard anything. oh....she's due in june and havent heard a word.

--feel like just an aquantence in her life and not a sister?

2. talk to you mom xmas eve day. have inlaw over for xmas so busy but you never get a call from your mom or two sisters. then 2 days after xmas mom calls and asks how come you didnt call on xmas...with that you reply you were hoping someone would call ME. mom replies she was busy with step dad that is sick and she didnt have my phone number at sisters house who also didnt have your number (it was at work) and thought since i didnt hear from them you would call. you say....you were busy also with xmas stuff and inlaw visiting and are tired of always having to be the one to call everyone and never hearing the phone ring on your end. she ends conversation and say she will let you go....you say fine...merry xmas and love you...end call.
she calls back...voice mail get it cuz you dont want to get into it with her. she thinks you can hear the voicemail but you cant (cuz its through the phone) and says at lease she says she is sorry...blah blah blah and that at least she is calling to say merry xmas even if you didnt call on xmas. (still blaming you for not calling).

anyway...how would you feel? tired of being the one doing all the calling? tired of feeling like you dont exist in your family already and then these things happen?

doesnt matter...your depression was slowly coming back again anyway and this just topped it off. who gives a shit ...they live 3600 miles away and voice mail is grand.

dont want a hug right now? thats ok. try and sleep tonight if you can.