one pissed off mother.....

where do i start...im pissed to high heaven right now.

as you know hubby is very allergic to animals. and when i say very i mean someone can come to our house that has a pet and if that pet has been all over that person hubbys allergies can kick in and sometimes so sever it can cause very bad asthma attack or a trip to the hospital.

well....kiddo wants a pet. she used to have a cat until me and my ex split and we had to get rid of the cat (long story in itself). she understands that her stepdad is allergic and when she goes to friends houses that have pets and comes home she always makes sure she washes her hand and goes as far as to change her clothes so he isnt effected.

but sometimes she is just a kid. tonight for instant. sometime at school today when she was on the internet she found out there are rabbits that are good for people with allergies. she was all excited thinking that we could get one of those. we have done research on all sorts of pets we could get...but either they are things i just dont want in my house (reptiles) or the are way to exspensive....or just as simple as...if we do spend all that money on a "schnoodle" or whatever...come to find out hubby is still allergic and have to give it back leaving all of us heart broken.

tonight she kept talking about how she "really wanted a pet"...and ..."i wish you werent allergic cuz i REALLY want a pet"...blah blah blah. all this while in walmart.

being the "good" parent that i am i kept my mouth shut and let hubby handle this. as i shopped with them behind me going on about all this i tried to ignore what was happening. but in my mind i wanted to say something i thought i would NEVER EVER SAY TO MY CHILD.

that being....."suck it up...we cant have a pet...you know why...and if you dont like...go live with you asshole of a dad that abandoned you!"

yep...i was thinking that. didnt say it...but it was in my head. im really afraid something along those lines is going to come out as we reach our teen years. we do everything we can for her..in fact i think i spoil her a bit cuz of all the divorce stuff in the past.... but when she gets her mind on something she just doesnt let it go. (i guess she takes after me)

sorry...but i had to vent...cuz im even a little upset with hubby right now...not sure really why...maybe just how it all went down at walmart...i dont know. just upset with everything around me at this very moment.

anyway...time for dinner even though my stomach is saying something else.

hugs to you.