A few things on the mind.....
its absolutly beautiful outside this morning. the sun is shining and not a dark cloud in the sky. its currently -3c and a whopping high of -1c to come. very crisp and clear out there. burrr!
couple things on my mind...where to start....
after hubby watched something on tv this morning he is thinking we should change our gift plans for kiddo. we have already bought her a nintento game cube for christmas ...with plans to get her a cheap dvd player and new tv. NOW...after seeing something on the newer PS2's he thinks that would be better cuz it plays dvd's and there are a "couple" games she really wants that only come on ps2. ...but there are so many other "different" games you can get on NGC then on ps2. grrrr........not sure now what to do. 4 weeks before christmas and now the stress begins. all i know i have to decide what we are doing with the NGC before next saturday when we are making a trip to Charlottetown where we bought it if we are going to return it.
all this change of plan stuff is making me stress out....with no time to really get anything done next week....that would leave me only 2-3 weeks to get everything done...including the change of game systems.
i have my dentist appointment monday morning at 9:30am...and im already having so much anxiety over it. i have decided to get the one root canal and pull the second. im scared as all hell.
the other thing that has been on my mind is my family back home in california. to make things (kinda) short....talk to my mom this past tuesday for a bit and she asked if i had talked to middle sister (MS)....i said no...we never talk. i call now and again...leave msgs on her machine but i NEVER get calls back....never. then she asked if i had talked to youngest sister (YS)...and i told her i had talk a few days before online ...something we do when we catch each other on pogo.com. but convo was nothing more then the normal. my mom was hinting to something and i kinda figured out that MS was pregnant.
this news didnt set well with me. a few reasons. one....the first being the reason she is pregnant. she feels that since her oldest daughter is disabled (cyebal palsey) and 6 years old and her youngest right now is 3 she thinks that the youngest "needs" to have a brother or sister to play with. I CALL BULLSHIT! (IMO) the second reason this news didnt sit well with me is because my mom raising these kids for her and her husband the majority of the time. they treat her like an employee of theirs....only "letting" her take time off when its good for them. i dont think there has been many days that MS and her hubby have had the kids (both of them) alone for any given amount of time with some form of help.
just pisses me off that my mom is in her 60's and should be having time for herself and not raising a second set of kids. she has bad knee problems and my step dad has had some really bad health issues come up the past couple years ....so she is taking care of him and the kids. it was so hard for her to get some time away while i was visiting this past july. i was almost to the point i thought i wasnt going to get to spend time with her since she had to "work" and couldnt get away from the house.
i know im not explaining this very clearly to how it is...hubby knows and agrees that its out of control on how she is treated and how things are handled there with her taking care of those kids. dont get me wrong...i love my neices. they are adorable and wonderful little girls...but MS hasnt really been a mom to them like their grandma has IMO.
the kicker to all this thing with my sister.....her not telling me she was pregnant. she is due in april. so ....she is what....4-5 months pregnant now and she didnt even tell me. FINE! now i know where we stand...100 percent....i feel very hurt she didnt even call me...or even a simple email. the only emails i ever get from her are the mass joke/info crap she sends to EVERYONE. all i have to say about all this.....FUCK OFF! im done.
i miss my family...but even when i lived back in cali....i was a hour and a half away from them and i felt left out even then. i guess being 3600 miles away isnt much different.
im hoping to have my mom come visit here sometime before my 40th birthday...that gives her a year and a half to do it. when we talked the other day she said that maybe when MS has her 3rd child she could come then when she is off work and can be home with the others and have other people stop by and help out. we shall see what comes of that. im not holding my breath. i miss my mom the most...i just want her to see where i live now and how beautiful it is here. we even offered to pay for half her ticket when she does come.
so...now that im all pissed off thinking about all that...i have to get ready for work now.
have a good weekend....i will update on monday (if im up to it) on how my dentist appointment went.
hugs.....
couple things on my mind...where to start....
after hubby watched something on tv this morning he is thinking we should change our gift plans for kiddo. we have already bought her a nintento game cube for christmas ...with plans to get her a cheap dvd player and new tv. NOW...after seeing something on the newer PS2's he thinks that would be better cuz it plays dvd's and there are a "couple" games she really wants that only come on ps2. ...but there are so many other "different" games you can get on NGC then on ps2. grrrr........not sure now what to do. 4 weeks before christmas and now the stress begins. all i know i have to decide what we are doing with the NGC before next saturday when we are making a trip to Charlottetown where we bought it if we are going to return it.
all this change of plan stuff is making me stress out....with no time to really get anything done next week....that would leave me only 2-3 weeks to get everything done...including the change of game systems.
i have my dentist appointment monday morning at 9:30am...and im already having so much anxiety over it. i have decided to get the one root canal and pull the second. im scared as all hell.
the other thing that has been on my mind is my family back home in california. to make things (kinda) short....talk to my mom this past tuesday for a bit and she asked if i had talked to middle sister (MS)....i said no...we never talk. i call now and again...leave msgs on her machine but i NEVER get calls back....never. then she asked if i had talked to youngest sister (YS)...and i told her i had talk a few days before online ...something we do when we catch each other on pogo.com. but convo was nothing more then the normal. my mom was hinting to something and i kinda figured out that MS was pregnant.
this news didnt set well with me. a few reasons. one....the first being the reason she is pregnant. she feels that since her oldest daughter is disabled (cyebal palsey) and 6 years old and her youngest right now is 3 she thinks that the youngest "needs" to have a brother or sister to play with. I CALL BULLSHIT! (IMO) the second reason this news didnt sit well with me is because my mom raising these kids for her and her husband the majority of the time. they treat her like an employee of theirs....only "letting" her take time off when its good for them. i dont think there has been many days that MS and her hubby have had the kids (both of them) alone for any given amount of time with some form of help.
just pisses me off that my mom is in her 60's and should be having time for herself and not raising a second set of kids. she has bad knee problems and my step dad has had some really bad health issues come up the past couple years ....so she is taking care of him and the kids. it was so hard for her to get some time away while i was visiting this past july. i was almost to the point i thought i wasnt going to get to spend time with her since she had to "work" and couldnt get away from the house.
i know im not explaining this very clearly to how it is...hubby knows and agrees that its out of control on how she is treated and how things are handled there with her taking care of those kids. dont get me wrong...i love my neices. they are adorable and wonderful little girls...but MS hasnt really been a mom to them like their grandma has IMO.
the kicker to all this thing with my sister.....her not telling me she was pregnant. she is due in april. so ....she is what....4-5 months pregnant now and she didnt even tell me. FINE! now i know where we stand...100 percent....i feel very hurt she didnt even call me...or even a simple email. the only emails i ever get from her are the mass joke/info crap she sends to EVERYONE. all i have to say about all this.....FUCK OFF! im done.
i miss my family...but even when i lived back in cali....i was a hour and a half away from them and i felt left out even then. i guess being 3600 miles away isnt much different.
im hoping to have my mom come visit here sometime before my 40th birthday...that gives her a year and a half to do it. when we talked the other day she said that maybe when MS has her 3rd child she could come then when she is off work and can be home with the others and have other people stop by and help out. we shall see what comes of that. im not holding my breath. i miss my mom the most...i just want her to see where i live now and how beautiful it is here. we even offered to pay for half her ticket when she does come.
so...now that im all pissed off thinking about all that...i have to get ready for work now.
have a good weekend....i will update on monday (if im up to it) on how my dentist appointment went.
hugs.....
posted by CaliGirl at
9:55 a.m.
