Break down?...
I think im having a mini-breakdown. eveyrthing lately has been pissing me off....my moods have been so up and down...i snap at things that i shouldnt.
today i feel like shit and want to just hide under the covers. yesterday i got pissed off at kiddo for some stuff that i constantly have to reminder about. i lost it. i yelled at her and told her i had to think about if i was going to let her go to a swim party that was 15 minutes from them. i made her cry. i hate making her cry. oh...and not just cry....she was sobbing when i got back from picking up hubby (5-mins round trip away). made me feel like more shit and parent of the day (yeah right).
hubby talked to her about what happened and why i was mad and the punishment wasnt to take away swimming...but no tv before bed when she got home.
i took her and made sure she got her stuff all together after changing into swimsuit. all the other girl guides were there and ready to swim. i left and went back home for the hour+ and just wanted to be alone.
hubby gave me my space...he knows when im pissed off and upset just to leave me alone unless i start talking first. (he's a sweetie...and thats why i love him so much).
anyway....she had fun and mom cooled off (a little)...i just layed in bed watching tv. i ended up falling asleep just after american idol came on so i didnt get to enjoy seeing constanSUCK get booted off. still dont agree with scott being there either...he should have gone weeks ago.
this morning...things started again with kiddo and me. i asked her if she talked to her friends mother yesterday before the assembly and she said "yes...until YOU interrupted". OMFG! she just didnt say that to me. i asked her again what she said and she repeated it. until I interrupted HER?? I felt so hurt...i know she doesnt realized sometimes what she says hurts others ...but she really needs to learn that. i told her that what she said really hurt me and would she have rather had me not come and see her skit? i can be like 2/3 of the parents at that darn school that dont show up for their kids things and support them. she didnt say anything. i was so upset.
anyway...that was my morning.....to make things worse...i had to go and get me a bathingsuit. *sigh* talk about taking yourself down even more. i got one...it fits...and it looks ok. would of rather gotten this other one...but it was twice as much to buy. oh well.
big hugs to you. i sure could use one right now. i got one from hubby this morning...but it could have lasted longer...a lot longer.
hope your day is better then mine....
today i feel like shit and want to just hide under the covers. yesterday i got pissed off at kiddo for some stuff that i constantly have to reminder about. i lost it. i yelled at her and told her i had to think about if i was going to let her go to a swim party that was 15 minutes from them. i made her cry. i hate making her cry. oh...and not just cry....she was sobbing when i got back from picking up hubby (5-mins round trip away). made me feel like more shit and parent of the day (yeah right).
hubby talked to her about what happened and why i was mad and the punishment wasnt to take away swimming...but no tv before bed when she got home.
i took her and made sure she got her stuff all together after changing into swimsuit. all the other girl guides were there and ready to swim. i left and went back home for the hour+ and just wanted to be alone.
hubby gave me my space...he knows when im pissed off and upset just to leave me alone unless i start talking first. (he's a sweetie...and thats why i love him so much).
anyway....she had fun and mom cooled off (a little)...i just layed in bed watching tv. i ended up falling asleep just after american idol came on so i didnt get to enjoy seeing constanSUCK get booted off. still dont agree with scott being there either...he should have gone weeks ago.
this morning...things started again with kiddo and me. i asked her if she talked to her friends mother yesterday before the assembly and she said "yes...until YOU interrupted". OMFG! she just didnt say that to me. i asked her again what she said and she repeated it. until I interrupted HER?? I felt so hurt...i know she doesnt realized sometimes what she says hurts others ...but she really needs to learn that. i told her that what she said really hurt me and would she have rather had me not come and see her skit? i can be like 2/3 of the parents at that darn school that dont show up for their kids things and support them. she didnt say anything. i was so upset.
anyway...that was my morning.....to make things worse...i had to go and get me a bathingsuit. *sigh* talk about taking yourself down even more. i got one...it fits...and it looks ok. would of rather gotten this other one...but it was twice as much to buy. oh well.
big hugs to you. i sure could use one right now. i got one from hubby this morning...but it could have lasted longer...a lot longer.
hope your day is better then mine....
posted by CaliGirl at
10:56 a.m.
