Anger Management needed........

talk about having a crap of a morning...everything possible that could piss me off did. im so angry right now i feel like i should enroll myself into some form of anger management class. at this moment i have that thought about ..wishing i wasnt a parent. im sure lots of parents have those days...you would never get rid of your kids....but damnit ...some days its like you cant take anymore! i get that thought but it doesnt last long only because i would never leave my daughter and put her through what her father did to her when he abandoned her. FUCK! thats the other thing why im so upset this morning. my daughter got a parcel this morning....it was some cute halloween goodies from one of her grandmas. it always seems to be from one of them. "asshole" (ex) never sends her shit. nothing....not a thing. the cute things she got this morning cost all of $10 if that plus shipping...so $15. thats it. does he do anything for her.........NO! does he pay child support like he is supposed to.....NO! all he does do is call her 1-2 times a months for a 10 min or so call. FUCKER! i just wish he would just go away all together. she says she loves him and blah blah blah....i just wish i could tell her all the stuff he doesnt do for her and realize what an ass he really is. im sure she will realize all this as she gets into her teen years. GRRRRRRRRRRRR.

the one reason im venting this out on here is to stop me from sending her asshole bio-dad a flaming email right now telling him how much his mom and my mom do for her....even little things....and he does jack shit.

so on that note.......... fuck him............!! i will say i have a great hubby now who tries to understand my frustrations with this situation and lets me vent. i love him dearly and im sure he is worried now sitting at work that im sending "asshole" an email....lol. but im not....im spewing on here. i love you sweetie.... :-)

anyway....sorry to go off and curse.....but this is me when i get angry. not pretty. good thing im off today. but then again with the morning i had ...im sure im going to be getting a call from the school sometime this morning to pick her up for whatever reason. just have that feeling..and i hate it.

im off to Pogo.com to play some games.........tah